ME???? Oh YES I can...

This has been a great week, a week where I have learned a little bit more about ME.

I learned this week that YES I CAN do a Half Marathon. Never in a million years would I have considered doing a half marathon a year ago. Now, so much has changed.

I have my sister, my parents and loads of supportive friends who have helped me realize that I CAN do the

thing I thought I could not do. (just a paraphrase of my favorite Eleanor Roosevelt quote).

After months of training, months of self doubt and dealing with a body that is plagued with aches and pains I managed to complete the Women's Running Half Marathon in St Pete last weekend. It ranks as one of my most exciting experiences of my life. I am not fast, so I had lots of time to think. 3:36:07 to be exact. I thought about how far I have come on my fitness journey. I thought about love and loss.

I thought about friendships and family. I thought about immortality or lack thereof. I thought about Mike.... alot.

I thought about my little pup, Marshall. I realized I was amazed by the sheer magnitude of the goal I had set for me. After 51 years, it was actually the first goal I can remember setting and worked

towards achieving. It was an awesome experience. An incredible experience. One that teaches me alot about my self. I am an athlete and I like it! I don't ever NOT want to be an athlete. I don't want to stand on the sidelines

and watch life pass me by. I spent far too many years doing exactly that.

I met Kathrine Switzer this weekend, the first woman to ever run in the Boston Marathon... what a kind, motivating woman. We spoke and she offered such motivation. She didn't take one look at me and think she was wasting her time, she made me BELIEVE that YES I CAN do a Half Marathon. She wrote on my race bib upside down, so during that long 13.1 mile experience I could look down at it, read her inspirational words and be inspired to achieve my dreams!

The running gods were with me this week, as I finished my long race I had the honor to run to the Finish Line with none other than my very first source of motivation... John (the Penguin) Bingham. An awesome moment. My prayers to God were fulfilled when he sent so many angels to help me complete my goal. My sister, Kathy, my dear friends.... Colleen, Dawn, Rhonda, Brenda, Denise, and her sister, Terry. My blogging friend Robin, keeping me motivated each and every day. My parents who believed I

could do this (after proper medical clearance, of course), and my boss Sharon( a fellow cancer survivor)... who always says the most motivating things when I need to hear them most. These are the people that helped bring me to this point in my life.

As I continue to SEARCH for ME, these people are my companions on my journey. I am thankful for them. Since today is THANKSGIVING... the Turkey Trot was in Orlando. Due to a slight injury during my Half Marathon, I chose to "sit out" the race today so I could be well healed for my Savannah Bridge Run next week. I was ecstatic to learn that while it was great WATCHING THE RACE..... I would much rather be PARTICIPATING IN THE RACE. That is the part of ME, I found today.

Happy Thanksgiving

Pieces of Me

Yesterday... I discovered a new "piece" of me. I was participating in my very first 10K race. I have been training for a Half Marathon for months, never really considered doing a 10K which probably would be a natural progression from a 5K prior to attempting the Half Marathon. So here I am ONE WEEK before the BIG race and my sister talked me into doing the 10K in the Track Shack's Founder's Day Race in Celebration.

I was really looking forward to it, maybe a little nervous because it was my very first 10K, but otherwise fine. The weather was PERFECT, you couldn't have asked for a better day.

I started the race, and since I run/walk my races I am not the speediest racer on the block by any means. I am doing this for my health, for myself, for the wonderful feeling of accomplishment it provides me. I love the adrenaline rush and the continual training that allows me to get better. I love the fact that my sister and I have finally been able to spend lots of time bonding after many years of raising our children, who of course were very different. She has 3 boys and I had 1 girl. Not

much in common there other than they are our children. Anyway... I love that I feel better, stronger, and emotionally healthy. (others may disagree on this point, nonetheless since I am writing this blog I can say what I want!)

Now... back to the race! I started off and the course thru Celebration is just beautiful, picture perfect... It's like a "Stepford" town. Everything is perfect and beautiful. My first two miles are slow.... really slow... my body aches, my shins hurt and I am asking... "Where the heck are my endorphins, they should be kicking in by now". Finally as I am passing by the water stop at mile marker #2, I suddenly start to feel great, the pain is gone, my pace picks up and I am ready to kick asphalt... at least as much as a newbie joggywalker can do. Passing by miles, 3, 4, 5, and then 6... is great THEN it happens. Talk about hitting a BRICK wall? What about hundreds of people blocking your pathway to the FINISH LINE? I see the 5k-er's lining up for the next race and they are rows deep and wide... no one is moving to let me or the other less fast, or shall I say slower joggywalkers finish OUR race. I decide to start running and head straight into the mass of bodies... people suddenly start to move to the side after this wonderful man in a "Boston Marathon" t-shirt screams for people to move aside and gives me a big "Thumbs up" and "Good job". I press on to the Finish Line and I am MAD.... My first 10 K and I had to fight to the finish! After numerous not so nice words about what happened and my sister calming me down, I was able to relax and savor the important moments and reflect on what really counts.

What really matters is the I FINISHED A 10 K, whereas, strolling across the parking lot not too long ago was a challenge!!!! I am strong! I am healthy and looking forward to my next adventure. I found the part of me that perseveres, that is competitive, the part of me that "Dreams, Trains, and Achieves"!

My new doctor is wonderful and supportive, I met with her today and she gave me the results of my lab work... For the first time that I can remember... everything was wonderful. All that exercise, working out, and eating right actually works! Perfect glucose, cholestrol, triglycerides, kidney and liver functions, thyroid regulated, wonderful I am an athlete, so she says... My only glitch in my bloodwork which kept me from getting a PERFECT result was I have a Vitamin D deficiency. So.... I need more sunlight and chocolate milk. Got the prescription for a vacation in the islands and loads of 1% Chocolate Milk.... Now I can have it post work out and not feel guilty. MILK... it does your body good!

Hey, just another little bit of Me.

There are many, many things that I love... of course I love my family, my friends, even my job. But I have a passion for certain hobbies. Most notably, photography. I can go anywhere, do anything... as long as I have my camera I am content. My other passion is exercise and fitness. So of course when I am doing my 5K's or a 10K of a Half Marathon, the "little" camera comes with me. Gotta have it. It is essential running gear. Most "athletes". and I am an "athlete" my doctor says so!!!! LOL Don't consider a camera part of the sports gear thing, but I do. As I participate in runs I am always seeing photographic opportunities. Yesterday, I did 9 miles around Silver Lake. I started out just before sunrise. As I am finishing my first mile, the sun is rising, it is reflecting off the lake. There is a boat house, a few herons, a canoe in the water tied to the dock... the colors are gorgeous. I am thinking what a perfect picture op... and you know what, I don't have my camera on me. I totally missed a beautiful shot. The beauty however stays embedded in my mind. In addition to my photography, 5K-itis, I also enjoy poetry, reading and writing it. Often on my runs, I think of a poem that is inspired by my experience that particular day. I often wish I had a pen and paper with me to write my thoughts down. I think the most deep and profound thoughts as I am pounding the pavement. Can't you imagine... watching me, running... walking... taking pictures... pausing to jot down a few notes all while doing a 5K???? Crazy, but that is what I'd love to do. If my nature was not so competitive, that is what I would be doing.

Anyway, that is just another little bit of me. I love looking for the beauty in everyday life. The fluffy clouds, the way the sun reflects off water. The sunrises and the sunsets... the thunderstorms, flowers, trees and all those things. People... their faces, their reactions. The joys , the triumphs. The laughter, even the sadness.... Expressions that are priceless. My little guy, Marshall... It's about LIFE, about appreciation... about beauty of expression. It is ABOUT ME.....